Chapter 19
The cavalcade travelling along the coast
road made an impressive sight, accompanied as it was fore and aft by
riders bearing the standard of the High King, along with an
assortment of other brightly coloured banners and crests. These
included the new colours of Númenor, as well as the emblem of the
House of the Golden Flower of Gondolin. Their pace was leisurely,
dictated largely by the presence of wagons, which carried gifts
selected by the High King and his Council to be taken over the sea
to the New Land as a token of friendship, and the last few personal
items Elros had been reluctant to send on ahead. Amongst these,
confined to her cage, was Laslech, the new king’s dog..
~*~*~*~*~
The road
Glorfindel, not unexpectedly, enjoyed the journey to Forlond.
Already curious about the expansion of Lindon, he was fascinated by
everything along their route; the new settlements, the cultivated
fields, the orchards, the many signs of the beginnings of
prosperity. The early winter’s day was mild, with intermittent cloud
and a fairly brisk breeze, and the scents of sea and growing things
combined with the warmth of the sun on his back to give him a
feeling of quiet contentment.
He rode either alone or else alongside Dalbros, the senior
librarian, who was unaccustomed to travel, and was enthusiastically
excited to have been included in the party. He had been invited
specifically to record the details of this unprecedented event for
inclusion in the History of the Kingdom of Lindon which he had
recently begun compiling.
The party included a group of Men, mainly sons and younger brothers
of several of Elros’ councillors who, on an impulse born of youthful
high spirits, had travelled up from Forlond, wishing to provide a
welcoming escort for their uncrowned King. To Glorfindel’s amused
surprise, they got along far better with the assortment of Elven
councillors and nobles and the members of the strongly armed escort
of warriors than would probably have occurred under more formal
conditions
Gil-galad rode a little apart from the rest, apparently deep in
thought, not even speaking to Elros who rode in equal silence a
short distance behind him. Glorfindel discreetly watched the future
king of Númenor smile and speak to any who came to ride alongside
him, but the smile failed to touch his eyes and there was an air
about him that suggested company was tolerated rather than sought.
Knowing how this venture had been thrust upon him, the Elf from
Gondolin could hardly begin to imagine what might be going through
his mind.
~*~*~*~*~
Neither Men nor horses have
the endurance of the Eldar, therefore arrangements had been made for
the party to pass the night in a lightly wooded area just outside a
small fishing village, which they reached late in the afternoon.
Those responsible for the travellers’ comfort had gone on ahead
while the main party had stopped for lunch, and by the time the King
arrived, tented pavilions had been set up, fires had been lit, and
dinner preparations were already underway.
Glorfindel, having found his designated shelter, noticed that the
royal standard was in the process of being raised above Gil-galad’s
tent, and that guards had already been set at the entrance. He
smiled wryly. This was one night he and Gil would definitely be
spending apart.
To fill the time before dinner, he decided to explore the village,
taking with him a couple of sticks of charcoal and his new sketch
book, which was already half filled with rough drawings. Art had
been a much-loved pastime in his youth until curtailed by his
father, who insisted this was an unsuitable hobby for the son of a
lord. He had recently confided this to Erestor, whose response,
within hours, had been to present him with a variety of materials to
experiment with and on. Glorfindel found himself actually teasing
the dark Elf, suggesting that this ability to produce the unlikely
at such short notice displayed the makings of an exceptional
quartermaster.
Which, in time, would prove to be true.
The village contained no more than a few dozen houses and a
blacksmith’s, all huddled around or close to a central square. A
small, open space near the little harbour was hedged with rosemary
and rowan and contained a circle of polished white stones, shoulder
high; this was obviously the village holy place. Glorfindel had
heard of this practice, which was rapidly growing up amongst the
Sindar, who in their turn had obtained it from the Silvan Elves.
Despite it being fashionable to mock such behaviour as
unsophisticated, he rather liked the idea of having a place set
aside to go and give thanks to the Shining Ones and to remember
those lost during the times of trouble.
He paused beside it, not liking to intrude in a place that was not
his own, and, closing his eyes briefly, made his thanks – for life,
for friends, for the cool sea air, for the merciful fading of his
nightmarish memories, for Gil-galad… Especially for Gil-galad.
Glorfindel, as he slowly adjusted to his new life, remained
ambivalent towards much of it, but not about the King. In a manner
that was both complex and wonderfully simple, he knew that in Gil-galad
he had found the love of his life. No matter what road the future
took, no matter the state of the King’s heart, for Glorfindel this
love would be forever, a part of his own personal thread of the
Music.
~*~*~*~*~
The palace
The emotional storm that had torn through Elrond’s defenses and sent
him into Erestor’s arms ran its course, though not before he had
stammered out a semi-coherent catalogue of the horror and loss that
had filled his life, most of it into Erestor’s white-clad shoulder.
Erestor said nothing throughout, simply held him and stroked his
hair and back, eventually guiding him to the bed so that they could
sit together instead of standing in the centre of the room.
When the wracking sobs had finally ceased and even the occasional
soft hiccough of a tear had subsided, Erestor rose and went to open
the prohibitively expensive bottle of miruvor he had bought in case
of a special occasion, and the two small cups out of which it was
customarily drunk. Going back to the bed, he took a moment to
consider his unexpected guest with concern. Elrond sat very straight
on the edge of the bed, with his head bowed and his hair hanging
loose and tumbling wildly around him. His hands were clutching the
coverlet, gripping so tightly the knuckles were white; he looked
pale and tense, with eyes so dark as to seem almost black.
Erestor offered the miruvor and said firmly, “Come on, drink some of
this. It’ll help steady you.”
Elrond took the cup and looked down at it uncertainly, before
putting it to his lips and sipping the potent liquid. “Half a bottle
might do that,” he said in something closer to his usual tones.
Erestor smiled briefly. “It’s a very small bottle,” he observed
dryly. “Still, even a cup will help. It can’t diffuse the pain, but
…”
Elrond sipped again, then looked up at Erestor through his hair.
“I’m sorry about…earlier,” he said slowly. “It was just – it was too
much this time. It feels as though everyone I love gets taken from
me. Today was just…very hard to deal with. I’m sorry for intruding
on you like this, I’m sorry for making you listen to all that…”
Erestor sat down and reached over, covering the hand not holding the
cup with his own. “You came to me, I listened. If there had been
more I could do, I would. No need for apology, ever. The danger with
pain is that if you keep it inside, it confines its poison to your
heart. Eventually either it eats you alive or you grow hard enough
to ignore it. Neither are good, though learning to be hard is worse,
I think. It grinds away at the place in your soul where love grows.”
Elrond slanted him a glance from dark eyes. “They make songs about
my family’s history for entertainment. Elros will just be one more
tragic hero to add to the list.” He made no attempt to hide the
resentment in his tone.
Erestor nodded, unable to argue with this simple fact. “I know it
hurts to see people you love being reduced to a fireside tale, but
if you only look at the pain you forget the joy. Death is not an
ending to love unless we make it so.”
Elrond’s face became still and closed and he drew his hand back.
“For us, perhaps. Not Elros,” he said flatly. “But, of course, he
will make a lovely song…”
Erestor placed a firm hand under the Half-elf’s chin, tilting it up
so that he could look into the dark grey eyes, and spoke firmly.
“Elrond, most of us now living have suffered loss of some type. I
know it feels as though you’re alone, but you’re not. I really do
understand…”
Elrond had the grace to lower his eyes and give a small nod. “I know
I’m not the only one,” he admitted. “I know the stories, I grew up
with them. Still, they tend to make much of my family… it’s almost
as bad as coming from Gondolin, I think,” he added with an attempt
at humour.
Erestor started to tidy the tangle of web-fine hair back from the
Half-elf’s face. “Or Nargothrond,” he agreed almost
conversationally. “I’ve had a few days when I’ve wished the songs
could at least have been written by someone who had actually seen a
Dragon.”
Elrond turned his head into the tidying hand almost unconsciously
and frowned thoughtfully, a spark of interest lighting eyes that had
previously been flat and distant. “Have you ever seen one? A Dragon,
I mean.”
Erestor paused. Like Elrond, he lived life behind a mask, in his
case not as a defense against pain, but as a means to force the
world to take him seriously. Exotically beautiful, with his
slanting, amber eyes, shining black hair and creamy skin, it had
taken several harsh lessons before he learned that the best response
to those who saw no further than his obvious attractions was a cool,
superior attitude and an acid tongue.
Most people with whom he had dealings very quickly stopped noticing
his appearance, although this, he knew, was not yet the case with
the Princeling. Gentleness and vulnerability had no place in the
façade he presented to the world, nor had the memories of his past,
yet these, his instincts told him, were needed to convince Elrond
that he did not have to deal with this latest grief totally alone.
“Yes, I’ve seen one,” he said in an even voice. “I saw Glaurung
himself.”
Elrond curled onto the bed and, drawing his legs up beneath him to
sit cat-like, assumed a waiting air, the cup forgotten in his hand.
Erestor put his miruvor down on the floor and impulsively crawled
across the bed to sit behind Elrond, who looked back over his
shoulder, startled. He relaxed when Erestor drew his wayward hair
back before picking up a brush from the little nightstand and
starting to impose some form of order while he talked.
“It was against the rules, but we were walking together – we were
all very young,” he began, brushing firmly, his voice soft with
memory. “We’d been sent on an errand to Círdan’s people. I remember
I was talking about a visit to the baths and about my mother’s
cooking… At any rate, Brethil was the one who first realised
something was badly wrong, though it was Dínen – he was sister’s son
to my father, he died during the War – who said he smelt smoke,
and…something more. We kept low after that, and silent, but even so
I think the only thing that saved us was that they never thought to
look so close to the caves for more victims.”
He fell silent, remembering an odour of burning mingled with a foul,
metallic stench with an edge of corruption. The scent of Dragon.
“The bushes down by the river were on fire,” he continued, brushing
slowly. “The smoke hid us, so we could get close enough to watch,
even hear… The survivors were mainly women and children. They were
being…herded out onto the long terrace in front of the entrance. The
Orcs were kicking them, driving them along with whips…”
His voice trailed off. Elrond shifted back to lean against him, and
placed a steadying hand on his thigh, his own grief for the moment
put aside. Erestor set the brush down and slid an arm round him
before continuing. “There were only six of us, we could do nothing.
We watched them drive our people across the bridge...When it was
built, my great-uncle Gwindor said it would be our doom, and he was
right. Before then, we had been hidden, but the bridge showed
Morgoth the road to our door.”
He drew a ragged breath before going on. “The Mormegil was there
too, the Man you’d know as Túrin Turambar. He was standing on the
edge of the terrace near the bridge - they had to pass him before
they crossed it. We heard Orodreth’s daughter, Lady Finduilas,
screaming at him to wake up, to help them…She tried to go to him but
the Orcs laid hands on her and pushed her to join the others. He
never moved. He just stood there…bewitched by Glaurung.”
He paused, his eyes distant, and began to absently finger the soft
fabric of Elrond’s sleeve. “How do I describe Glaurung to you? You
probably need to understand where this happened. There was a
terrace, and then shallow stairs leading down to the bridge and he
was lying sprawled across the terrace with his head resting on the
top step…” He was quiet for a moment, his hand still. “For years
after, I saw that head in my dreams,” he said, his voice low. “Like
a lizard, only – immense. They had to pass him as they left, close
enough to reach out a hand, close enough to feel his breath on their
skin…”
There were no words that would do justice to the memory, no way to
explain scales that were a tarnished greenish gold, a body
monstrously immense, so much so that the mind revolted at the sight.
Words could never begin to convey the reality of those heavily
muscled forelimbs, stocky, obscenely clawed, nor the grinning,
darkly-crested head, almost the height of a full-grown Elf. And the
eyes… He had caught a glimpse of the corner of one eye. Red it was,
a dark, unhealthy red, and even that quick glance showed him the
power and intelligence of the serpent, for this was no mere beast,
but a sentient being. And emanating from it, as tangible as the
acrid smoke that eddied and flowed around it, had been an aura of
pure malice. Words, he realised, could only diminish it.
Elrond sat up and turned to face Erestor, and asked in a voice that
was little more than a whisper. “Your family?”
He shrugged slightly, and the amber eyes closed briefly. “I saw my
mother and one sister pass the serpent’s head. My other sister….she
was very young. They killed the ones too small to work. Her name was
Galuiel. My father? I assume my father died fighting on Tumhalad. I
never found anyone who knew for sure.”
“How do you bear it?” The words came unbidden to Elrond’s lips,
asking the question that had coloured his own life for so many
years. He was kneeling with his hands resting lightly on his thighs,
leaning forward slightly, his expression intent. Erestor considered
him thoughtfully, then placed his hands firmly over Elrond’s, and
summoned an attempt at a smile.
“I was angry and in pain for a very long time,” he admitted. “We
were a close family. But my pain was overwhelming the good memories
I had of them – so I let it go.”
“Our kind go to Mandos,” Elrond said quietly. “And later some are
reborn in Aman. You will find them again some day. Not my brother.
His death will be absolute.”
Erestor shook his head and smiled properly this time. “Who knows how
death might change the reborn fëa? And I live here, not in the West.
No. All I have for comfort is what I offer you. As long as we keep
their memory fresh and etched in love, as long as there is a voice
to tell their tale, those we love will never leave us.”
He slid his arms around Elrond, and moved gracefully into his
answering embrace. As the Half-elf's cheek came to rest against his
hair, he added, “Believe this, Elrond, and your brother will never
die.”
~*~*~*~*~
The road
Glorfindel explored the narrow streets, made a few brief sketches of
the harbour and outlined a view of the houses surrounding the
square, which he thought he might later expand into a painting,
though he suspected he was being overly ambitious. After this, he
immersed himself in the lines and curves that slowly shaped
themselves into a picture of the circle of stones with the sea
behind it. So involved did he become in this that it was only the
fading of the light that made him realise he was in danger of
missing dinner.
No one stopped to speak with him in the village, either during the
time he spent there or at his departure, though he knew many pairs
of eyes had been following his progress with interest. The few Elves
he passed on his way back to the camp nodded and made the gesture of
respect, fingers to forehead, which was normally reserved for great
lords. They were partially right, he thought, with a small clench of
sadness round his heart, not for the rank which had once been his,
but for all he had lost with the passing of its relevance.
On his return, he found dinner being served and most of the company
already eating. He joined the small group still gathered at the
makeshift table – a board resting on two strips of wood – from which
the remaining fish, pork and venison was being portioned out, and
was waiting his turn when a member of the escort came up behind him,
holding out a well-laden plate.
“His Majesty noticed your absence, my lord, and asked me to see to
this for you. He said you would prefer the fish?”
Glorfindel turned, feeling the warmth in his face and hoping the
blush wasn’t obvious in the gathering dusk. No matter how he tried,
this was something over which he seemed to have no control. “Fish
was a rarity in Gondolin,” he explained with a quick smile. Taking
in the plate’s contents, he added, “And thank you, this was
well-chosen.”
The warrior nodded confirmation. “Fish, well cooked, and a mixed
salad, his Majesty said. And bread, not bratan. He was very clear
about that.”
Bratan were strongly spiced wheat cakes, highly popular in Lindon,
but foreign and unpalatable to the newcomer.
Most of the travellers had taken their food and gone to sit around
the fire which had been built up within stones in the centre of the
clearing, but Glorfindel found a quiet spot on the grass under a
tree, made himself comfortable and began to eat. He had always kept
a little apart, shyness being a barrier to the easy mingling that
happened apparently effortlessly around him, and he had learned to
take pleasure in being a spectator instead of a participant at
social events.
He was suddenly taken by a feeling of unreality as he watched the
scene before him. Men and Elves mingled in small groups, while the
smoke rising from the fires danced in the glow of the lanterns which
shone amongst the trees, strung there partly for the convenience of
the Men, who lacked Elven sight after dark, partly for love of the
atmosphere they created. Voices were talking, laughing, raised in
song, all blending in harmony with the unseen, murmuring presence of
the sea…
Gondolin had been a land of firmly imposed order, with accepted
rules for public conduct. This relaxed sharing of food, interlaced
with easy companionship and snatches of melody would have been
deeply frowned upon. For the King himself to be part of it, to be
wandering around, plate in hand, stopping to talk to first one group
then another as he had been when Glorfindel had returned, would have
been unthinkable. He sat, bread in hand, feeling dislocated as he
had not for some weeks, trying to reconcile the sense of unreality,
of being in two places at once, of being two people - for the
Glorfindel of Lindon was developing into a very different person to
the insecure, withdrawn Glorfindel of Gondolin.
“Ah, there you are, Glorfindel. May I join you?” Dalbros, holding
two cups of wine, stood looking down at him. Brought solidly back to
the present, solitude no longer an option, Glorfindel smiled a
greeting and was soon caught up in conversation. Reality returned
and the sense of dislocation gradually retreated.
~*~*~*~*~
The road
Glorfindel explored the narrow streets, made a few brief sketches of
the harbour and outlined a view of the houses surrounding the
square, which he thought he might later expand into a painting,
though he suspected he was being overly ambitious. After this, he
immersed himself in the lines and curves that slowly shaped
themselves into a picture of the circle of stones with the sea
behind it. So involved did he become in this that it was only the
fading of the light that made him realise he was in danger of
missing dinner.
No one stopped to speak with him in the village, either during the
time he spent there or at his departure, though he knew many pairs
of eyes had been following his progress with interest. The few Elves
he passed on his way back to the camp nodded and made the gesture of
respect, fingers to forehead, which was normally reserved for great
lords. They were partially right, he thought, with a small clench of
sadness round his heart, not for the rank which had once been his,
but for all he had lost with the passing of its relevance.
On his return, he found dinner being served and most of the company
already eating. He joined the small group still gathered at the
makeshift table – a board resting on two strips of wood – from which
the remaining fish, pork and venison was being portioned out, and
was waiting his turn when a member of the escort came up behind him,
holding out a well-laden plate.
“His Majesty noticed your absence, my lord, and asked me to see to
this for you. He said you would prefer the fish?”
Glorfindel turned, feeling the warmth in his face and hoping the
blush wasn’t obvious in the gathering dusk. No matter how he tried,
this was something over which he seemed to have no control. “Fish
was a rarity in Gondolin,” he explained with a quick smile. Taking
in the plate’s contents, he added, “And thank you, this was
well-chosen.”
The warrior nodded confirmation. “Fish, well cooked, and a mixed
salad, his Majesty said. And bread, not bratan. He was very clear
about that.”
Bratan were strongly spiced wheat cakes, highly popular in Lindon,
but foreign and unpalatable to the newcomer.
Most of the travellers had taken their food and gone to sit around
the fire which had been built up within stones in the centre of the
clearing, but Glorfindel found a quiet spot on the grass under a
tree, made himself comfortable and began to eat. He had always kept
a little apart, shyness being a barrier to the easy mingling that
happened apparently effortlessly around him, and he had learned to
take pleasure in being a spectator instead of a participant at
social events.
He was suddenly taken by a feeling of unreality as he watched the
scene before him. Men and Elves mingled in small groups, while the
smoke rising from the fires danced in the glow of the lanterns which
shone amongst the trees, strung there partly for the convenience of
the Men, who lacked Elven sight after dark, partly for love of the
atmosphere they created. Voices were talking, laughing, raised in
song, all blending in harmony with the unseen, murmuring presence of
the sea…
Gondolin had been a land of firmly imposed order, with accepted
rules for public conduct. This relaxed sharing of food, interlaced
with easy companionship and snatches of melody would have been
deeply frowned upon. For the King himself to be part of it, to be
wandering around, plate in hand, stopping to talk to first one group
then another as he had been when Glorfindel had returned, would have
been unthinkable. He sat, bread in hand, feeling dislocated as he
had not for some weeks, trying to reconcile the sense of unreality,
of being in two places at once, of being two people - for the
Glorfindel of Lindon was developing into a very different person to
the insecure, withdrawn Glorfindel of Gondolin.
“Ah, there you are, Glorfindel. May I join you?” Dalbros, holding
two cups of wine, stood looking down at him. Brought solidly back to
the present, solitude no longer an option, Glorfindel smiled a
greeting and was soon caught up in conversation. Reality returned
and the sense of dislocation gradually retreated.
~*~*~*~*~
After he had eaten, Glorfindel scraped his
plate, left it on the stack to be washed and, after helping himself
to an apple from the fruit offered in lieu of dessert, decided on a
short walk before steeling himself to join the crowd sitting around
the fire. This time he went up to the road, thinking to go as far as
the watch station which had been set up a short distance from the
camp. He had not gone far before he saw Gil-galad, who was standing
looking out over the sea at the strange new light shining
brilliantly in the West. Glorfindel was surprised to see that
Laslech was with him, leashed and sitting obediently beside him,
waiting, as Elrond had taught her, till they could move on.
He approached them unhurriedly, ignoring the sense of eyes on his
back and telling himself firmly not to be fanciful, no one was
watching, and, even if they were, this was nothing more than an
innocent conversation. Gil-galad, alerted by Laslech’s excited bark
and wagging tail, turned and smiled an invitation, his eyes lighting
with welcome.
“I should have thought of this,” Glorfindel said, smiling a greeting
and gesturing to the dog. “She hated being in that cage. I should
have taken her with me when I went to look at the village, too.”
Earlier in the day, hearing the dog barking for attention, he had
dropped back a few times to ride beside the wagon on which she was
being transported, along with an assortment of crates and baskets,
but his presence had only caused her to whine and scratch to be
released. Concerned by her obvious fear and confusion, he had
finally decided it would be best to let her alone in the hope that
she would accept the situation and settle down.
“They let her out on the road a few times, but otherwise…. I was
going to ask someone to take her for a walk, but it seemed easier to
do it myself,” Gil-galad explained, reaching down to gently tug one
of the young dog’s ears. “I wanted to have a look at the view
anyway…it’s almost as bright as day.”
They stood together, watching the unearthly glow of Vingilot sailing
low across the sea in the West. Glorfindel, who remembered the
coming of the moon and the wonder it had engendered, had been
surprised the unnatural light was accepted in so matter of fact a
manner, but the Eldar had seen many strange things since that first
moonrise, not all of them good, and they were less easily over-awed.
“I expected Elrond to change his mind in the end and ride with us,”
he remarked, kneeling down beside the dog. She licked him with less
than her usual exuberance, confused by the cage and the journey and
not understanding the reason for what, in her world, could only be a
punishment for some unfathomable error.
Gil-galad shook his head, his eyes following the flight of a gull,
as clearly outlined against the sky as it would have been by
moonlight. “It would be harder to keep up a front at the last, and
there’d be too many eyes watching. I’m guessing they said what
needed saying days ago. It’s the way they are.”
Glorfindel nodded slowly. “I should have tried to talk him into
coming along anyway, or else stayed behind myself,” he said, putting
an arm round Laslech and petting her. “I was wrong to leave him
alone like this.”
“We’ll only be gone a few days,” Gil-galad replied, shrugging with
the smallest touch of impatience. Glorfindel’s regular concern for
Elrond tended to unsettle him for reasons he preferred not to
analyse. “He’ll be more likely to need support once the reality’s
had a chance to set in. Whatever he’s dealing with now could hardly
be worse than the strain of putting on a face with everyone watching
to see how he coped.”
Glorfindel shot him a glance. The remark had the edge of bitter
experience to it. He was reminded of Elrond’s comments about Gil-galad
having to cope with the news of the destruction of Nargothrond and
the deaths of his father and sister whilst he was in Círdan’s care,
and living amongst strangers. Deciding to keep the conversation
light, he sought a less sombre topic. “You seemed to be enjoying
yourself earlier?” he said, making it a question. “You spent a lot
of time talking with the Men. You enjoy their company, don’t you?
The Second-born generally, I mean, not just this group.”
Gil’s mouth pulled in a wry smile. “They have a lot to recommend
them, I find,” he admitted. He glanced around, confirmed they were
alone and came and sat down next to Glorfindel, stretching his legs
out before him and leaning back on his hands, close enough for their
shoulders to touch. He gave Glorfindel a sidelong, considering
glance, before saying slowly, “I have spent almost my whole life
being compared to my predecessors – to Fingolfin and Fingon, to
Turgon, to my uncle Finrod… To the Second-born, these names are
unimportant. There has only been one High King of the Elves for
several generations of their kind. Amongst them I need not feel I am
continually being measured…”
He stopped a moment and compressed his lips, then he glanced at
Glorfindel with a rueful smile before leaning against him and
pushing him lightly. The smile failed to reach his eyes; they were
watchful, waiting for judgement or disapproval. “I think Elrond had
to hear some of this the night I got drunk,” he admitted. “I’m
completely sober tonight - hopefully I’m less self-pitying, too.
It’s just – very hard to walk in their shadows sometimes.”
Glorfindel let go of Laslech, who had found peace in familiar
company and was lying waiting for Elrond to come and fetch her home.
He turned to face Gil, and placed a hand over one of his, knowing
they were visible to anyone else who might care to walk along the
road from the camp, knowing too that touch was essential to someone
as tactile as the King. He understood how difficult it had been to
share this confidence. Gil-galad’s eyes met his, and offered his
vulnerability as a gift.
“Turgon accepted isolation for us,” Glorfindel said, choosing his
words carefully. “I think it was the wrong choice – it left us
trapped and unprepared when the attack came. Fingon was ill-advised,
too inclined to listen to Maedhros who, in his turn, was driven by
his father’s Oath, not the good of the Eldar. And Fingolfin…” He
looked again at the light on the water, remembering another light, a
powerful, larger-than-life personality. Something of this showed in
his face, and he looked suddenly his age, one of the dwindling
number of the Aman-born still to be found in Middle-earth.
“Fingolfin was a great king, a wonderful leader. At the end, his
choice was more impulsive than wise, but he did what he felt was
right.” He paused, turning back to Gil. “You remind me of him a
little, perhaps. You have the same strength, the same love for your
people. But you also need to remember, those times were different. I
have seen them all, Gil. I even – barely – remember Finwë, and I
believe that for this Age and this place, you are the best King we
could have. I think, in time, you could show yourself greater than
all of them.”
Gil-galad turned his hand and intertwined their fingers, squeezing
briefly. He said nothing, but the look in his eyes, which appeared
almost silver in the strange light, told Glorfindel it had been
enough. They sat together, hands linked, with Laslech dozing beside
them, and watched the light of the last of the Silmarils marking a
pathway across the sea.
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